Can I just say that I’m glad it’s over?
I have a lot of great memories, but 2012 was rough. There was so much going on. I’m just glad to see it in the rearview mirror and look forward to a better year.
Before I went through the marathon process of logging in – I had forgotten my password – I had a whole bunch of things I had already mentally composed. Now I’m just fatigued. I’m just ready to surf Pinterest some more and call it a year.
Although that does remind me of one major thought I’d had: if you ever want to see the depths some people will plumb in an effort to be completely tasteless, just type in “zebra print” on Pinterest.
As for resolutions, I’m pretty sure I tanked on last year’s. I need to either be less ambitious or more disciplined. I’ll probably choose the former. Really, I’ve tried doing a whole bunch of stuff, and it makes me feel great for a while, but then I just don’t get it done, and I feel like a failure. So what’s the point? Instead, I just need to focus on like one major thing that I can do as my real resolution. I can change other stuff, and that will be just gravy – just extra goodness, but I need to stick to my guns and stick with one really important thing. The best I can say is that I didn’t gain a bunch of weight this year. I maintained. I got stronger and more flexible. I learned some limits. I tried something new – and I succeeded at it. I supported my kids in trying something new. I supported my husband in his professional growth.
I already know that I’m going to simplify this year. I’m going to give up some leadership positions and just try to focus on doing one or two things well instead of trying to do everything. I’m going to volunteer to help, but not to lead as much this year. What I do continue to lead, I want to do really well. If something doesn’t light up my life with joy, I’m going to drop it. I’m in my 30’s, and I need to make sure I enjoy this time. I need to make the most of it, my youth, my energy, my time with my family. I don’t need to ruin it by being constantly stressed.
On the other hand, I’m also working on developing or rekindling some relationships with friends. I realized that I need to put in some effort to maintain relationships with my friends. Just posting on Facebook isn’t enough. I need to put in face time as well as Facebook time.
And I’m working on getting my life in order with finances. That’s just a mess right now. An absolute, stress-ridden, wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat mess. I guess that’s going to be my biggest focus for 2013: getting a handle on my future by tackling the financial mess in which I’ve tangled myself.